When Chapters Fail

In between photography and writing 100 word stories (and all sorts of other life things), I’m still working on longer pieces. Ten years ago, I started something I called The Jump. Ten years later, I’m still working on it.

As with most of my longer pieces, it has been a struggle. Fortunately, a few months ago I found the path forward and I’ve been ever so slowly working towards a completed manuscript on the thing. I have only a few chapters left. But each chapter is like pulling teeth.

Side track here: over on Twitter, a few weeks ago there was a rash of writers whining about how the hardest part of a story to write was the beginning. I responded to one of them with the comment that the beginning was the easiest for me. Why? Because the story is new and there are no expectations, no holes to plug, no connections to be made. I can just write from the idea I have. Frequently, when I first started writing something, I can write 1,000-1,500 words in an hour or two. But once I figure out the story, where it’s going to go and how it’s going to end. That’s when things get difficult. Yesterday, as I wrote chapter 15, I spent most of the afternoon watching a baseball game on TV and working on that chapter. And managed about 350 words to finish it. It took hours.

And back to the point of the post. I hate it. I feel like I’m just going through the motions on this chapter. And I can’t do that. For some reason, I feel like this is the most critical chapter in the whole book. It’s when the two traveling groups finally meet up. It’s where love may bloom. It’s where The President’s Men attack those two groups that have become one.

It sucks. I need to step back and reconsider the chapter and start over. This rarely happens with my writing and normally I might just let it go. I can’t do that with this one though. This story deserves more than me just going through the motions, rushing through this chapter so I can get to the end.

Sigh.

Back to the drawing board.

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Long-time readers may remember when I posted the first few chapters of this story. It’s possible that those chapters have changed. What follows is what may be the first chapter now:

Alisdair Weston 

October 5, 2011 

The place was a small town in Kentucky. Loretto, where fewer than 1,000 people called home. Alisdair Weston rose in the school auditorium and walked slowly to the podium. A few journalists from nearby newspapers were there. A few more locals, too. There were no TV cameras. Just a few people with their phones out, recording Weston as he began to speak. 

The video was viewed millions of times in the months that followed. Like archaeologists pouring over ancient writings, viewers puzzled over what it all meant. As the recording begins, Weston can be seen shuffling papers on the podium, dropping some and appearing to put them back in some random order. Once he got the stack under control, he looked out at the sparsely filled room. 

The person with the phone, whose name has never been revealed, was off to the side. He, or she, alternately zoomed in on Weston and zoomed out to get the reaction of the few who were there. 

When Weston began speaking, at first, he spoke uncertainly. He stopped and started, his voice occasionally taking on a quavering quality that said to the listener that this man was nervous and if he was serious about his announcement, he better pick up his game a bit. But about halfway through, something changed. His voice steadied and a look came over his face and he launched into his broadside of modern America and explained why he, a little-known Congressman from Nowhere, Kentucky, was running for President. 

We live in an age of division and distress. Too many Americans go to bed hungry or without a roof over their heads. While others count their billions and never stop adding to their stack of cash. Rather than seeking to unite us and to provide for all, our leaders, if you can call them that, have sunk into corruption and greed, pandering to their bases while ignoring the misery in front of them. They are more interested in power for their own benefit instead of power for your benefit. For the people of America. These people in power are the enemy. Have no doubt about that. 

We are a great nation, leading the world through two great wars, creating the greatest economy that ever existed, and serving as a beacon of freedom and prosperity for all on Earth. We have led through democracy and financial aid. We fought wars to protect those who couldn’t protect themselves. We have done so much for so many. 

But it’s time now to step back. To take care of our own for it is a fact that we have left so many of our fellow countrymen and women behind while distracted by the needs of others. Many who have never appreciated our help and our example, but who have opted instead to continue to battle us in endless conflicts that bleed our resources. 

This is why I am running for President. To paraphrase an old election slogan of better days, once again, there will be a chicken in every pot and a roof over everybody’s head. I will ensure that peace exists in our lands and at our shores. However, until we can get our own house in order, when I am President, we will no longer fight the world’s wars. We have our own war right here in America that must be resolved. We must achieve internal peace before we can spread peace throughout the world. 

You may be looking at me now, wondering how I think I can win the Presidency. It’s simple. Because I believe I can. And I will. God is on my side. America needs God. And God WILL BLESS AMERICA!! 

When the news channels got a hold of the video, they aired it. Talking heads practically exploded at Weston’s belief that he could win the Presidency. CNN declared him “the proverbial back-bencher” and practically laughed at the idea he could win.  

“Nobody has heard of him. Nobody. I called a source at GOP’s national headquarters. She’d never heard of him. I had to google him to see who he was before I came on air tonight,” said an anchor from MSNBC.  

And Fox News, while applauding his call to God at the conclusion, showed the opening of the video over and over, with their anchor asking, “Is Alisdair Weston ready for prime time?” 

What the pundits and pontificators didn’t realize was how desperate Americans were for something different. The talking heads cracked jokes about Weston Who? But in small towns and lost places around America, Weston touched a vein. He spoke to their needs and desires and offered a hand to them instead of two hands to the powerful.  

Weston ran his campaign on a shoestring as an independent, unaligned with any of the major or minor parties. He relied on small donations that began to come in from millions of Americans, many of whom had never donated to a political campaign before. As an independent, he didn’t have to run through a primary gauntlet. Instead, he was able to speak to the crowds he wanted to speak to, in the states where he wanted to go. He didn’t need to pander to voters for delegates. Weston didn’t have to appear in 37 debates from Iowa to New Hampshire to Georgia and on to California. 

Instead, in the closing lines of his stump speech, repeated at events across the country, he spoke of his dream for America.  

I remember when children roamed the streets. They didn’t spend the day looking at screens, locked away from other children. No, our children had free rein to experience the world and we were better for it.  

In school, we started the day with the pledge, learned the three r’s and how to think. We didn’t have counselors ensuring our self-esteem. Everybody didn’t get a trophy. If you lost, you lost. Winning was rewarded. Not losing. 

Our leaders didn’t always agree on things, but they worked together when the nation’s needs demanded. Now, they just scream and yell and stomp their feet. And race to their own screens and the poison of social media. We have become a nation of Twitterers, more intent on likes and follows, than on actually governing and DOING THE RIGHT THING! 

I’m here to tell you that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.  

It is time for our children to be children again. To run and to play. To laugh and to cry. To scrape their knees and, yes, even break a bone every now and then. To learn about America and its glorious history. That we are a Christian nation blessed by God. It is time for parents to be parents again. To be responsible. To lead by example and to shepherd their kids to the responsibility of being an American citizen respecting God and our past. 

It is time for our elected leaders to lead. And I say to the politicians of this country a simple thing. Lead! Or get out of the way.  

There’s a movement rising and those who wish to continue our slide into mediocrity will be swept aside! 

And don’t forget! A chicken in every pot, a car in every driveway, and for anybody who wants it, a nice white picket fence. 

Vote for Alisdair Weston. I promise you that we will find the hallowed land and America will take care of its own. In peace and prosperity, may God bless each of us and bless America. 

As Weston campaigned, his voice grew stronger. His presence sturdier. He exuded confidence and the American people needed that. In a three-way race with a firebrand Democrat and an outraged Republican, Weston won the popular vote by less than 100,000 votes and the electoral college vote by less than 20.  

It appeared America was ready for the change Weston promised. Of food and housing, an end to foreign ventures and domestic strife. It seemed America, at least the small majority who voted for Weston wanted a return to the America of Mayberry and Andy Griffith. They got some of it, and they got a whole lot more. 

What they also got was this. Less than a week after Weston was elected, he declared martial law, claiming that America had become a godless, lawless land and that he had no choice. One of his first actions was to outlaw the recording of his announcement all those months before in the little town of Loretto, Kentucky. It was only the beginning of a nightmare for much of America. 

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The Golden Hour

The prompt yesterday was “the golden hour.” I used it to write another 100 word piece. Not really a story, but a poem inspired by the picture I shared here.

It begins with brilliant blue 

scattered white clouds 

breeze settles 

into stillness 

sun slowly sinks 

towards the horizon 

waves swirl and crash 

in a dull roar 

rocks glisten and shine 

sand sifts and settles 

First comes yellow 

touching the edges 

Second comes pale orange 

deepening to a fire 

Third comes red 

feeling like fury 

Fourth comes pink 

impersonating cotton candy 

Finally comes deepest purple 

bleeding to night 

Warmth turns to cool 

Light becomes dark 

Anxiety turns to peace 

Noise becomes quiet 

Breathe in 

Breathe out 

Feel the calm 

Gather it in 

Be one with 

All of it 

The Golden Hour 

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Responsibility

Grant Faulkner, who is a part of the NaNoWriMo organization, and also runs a website called 100 Word Story, spoke last night at The Avid Reader bookstore in Davis last night. A friend mentioned it to me, so I went because the idea of writing flash faction and micro fiction has intrigued me but I’ve never really dabbled in it. Of all the stories I’ve written, I can think of only one that qualifies as flash (1000 words or less) and one that may be micro (100 words).

One of the things Faulkner mentioned was that, when he writes micro fiction he aspires to exactly 100 words. No more, no less. At the end of the discussion he gave us a prompt and suggested we give it a try. So … here is my first micro story. The first sentence was the prompt. It is exactly 100 words long.

“Just one more drink won’t hurt anything. Isn’t that what they say, whoever they is?” 

The bartender nodded. “I think I’ve heard that a time or two.” 

“Doesn’t it matter though?” 

“On what?” 

“One drink in, another won’t hurt, right?” I pushed my empty glass forward. “But, if you’re on your sixth or seventh, maybe not.” 

The bartender took the glass and placed it under the tap. “Yeah, I gotta keep tabs on you, don’t I?” 

He pulled the handle forward and begin to pour. 

When he pushed the glass back to me, I slid my car keys to him. 

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Coasters

Metal prints aren’t your thing? Maybe some coasters might be what you’re looking for.

A swan at a nearby lake, the sunset at San Simeon, an old church in Sedona, and sunset at the Freeport Bridge near Sacramento. (sorry about the shadows, I’m learning there is nowhere in my house that is reflection free)

These are four inch coasters. Cork on the back. Epoxy covering the front. Heat and cold resistant. $16 for the set. If shipped within the U.S., add on $12.

Let me know if you’re interested. Kmcreative55@gmail.com

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The Best Sunset Ever

December 2017, the missus and I went to San Simeon for a few days. Most of the hotels there are on the west side of Hwy 1 and back up to the beach. We checked in around 3:00 and then wandered down to the beach. A few hundred yards to the north we found a spot to watch the sun set with camera in hand. For the next couple of hours, I didn’t stop taking pictures. The combination of clouds and rocks, surf and sand, was absolutely perfect. As the sun went down, the colors went from blues and yellows to fiery reds and oranges. The full gamut of colors was on display and I took a lot of pictures that night. Ever since, I’ve been chasing something that compares. I’m still searching.

I have this currently available on metal. 10 x 16 (approx. because it’s hanging somewhere and I can’t measure it right now). Cost is $100. Or if you’d like a different size … 8 x 10 for $50. Or tell me what size and I’ll send you a quote. Postage not included. If interested, comment here or shoot me an email at kmcreative55@gmail.com.

I’ll be posting more pictures from this sunset in future weeks.

I should add … I get my metal prints from a place called Magnachrome. That’s all they do … metal prints. I’ve ordered metal from one or two other places and the quality just doesn’t compare. These are a little more expensive than at some of those other places, but the small additional cost is worth it.

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Mission Beach Sunset

A few years ago, we went down to San Diego to visit our son. We stayed in Mission Beach, a block from the ocean. One night we went to dinner at a restaurant that was even closer to the beach. This was the view from our table. A view I looked at and puzzled over. The lamp and the sunset. I wasn’t sure if they would work together. But I pulled my phone out and took the picture. I think it worked.

The details:

Metal Print

8 x 10 3/4 inches (because this was with my phone the images loses resolution for larger sizes).

$40 plus postage

If interested, drop a comment or email me at kmcreative55@gmail.com.

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A Change

Last year, I created a website to try to sell some of my photography. It didn’t do much primarily because I don’t have any idea how to market.

So, I’ve decided to try a different approach. Once a week, I’m going to post here about a photo I’ve taken. The post will include a picture of the photo, the location where it was taken, and the cost for the photo as I currently have it. Anybody interested should reply in the comments or send me an email at kmcreative55@gmail.com.

Here is an example:

Birds in Flight

I took this at the Sacramento National Wildlife Refuge which is located a couple of hours north of Sacramento. The first time I went to the refuge, the place was teeming with birds and ducks and geese and all manner of other water fowl. I entered this photo in a contest the refuge had for inclusion in a fundraising calendar and it was selected.

The details:

16 x 24 Metal Print w/hanging mount.

$150 (shipping not included and to be determined if ordered)

If you like the image but would prefer a smaller size, let me know. An 8 x 10 (or similar size) would be $50 (shipping not included). A special order will require a longer delivery time.

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A Veterans Anthology

Coming November 1, A Veterans Anthology is a collection of fiction and non-fiction in which veterans are featured. Some follow them in battle, some follow them after battle. A couple of stories are non-fiction tributes to fathers who served. A couple are tales of futuristic veterans. There may be a little bit of everything in this collection.

I put out a call for this earlier this year, edited the stories, and set it to publish on November 1. The authors include: Berthold Gambrel, Fred Nolan, EK Lloyd-Williams, John Patterson, John Rosskopf, Gregg Matson, Julie Woodside, Lionel deMaine, Marcia Ehinger, P.L. Clark, and myself.

The book is available in e-book and paperback virtually everywhere books are sold on-line. All proceeds beyond costs will be donated to the Wounded Warrior Project.

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What AI Says About “My” Books

A fellow writer mentioned that Amazon now has an AI feature, named Rufus, that can answer questions about products on Amazon, including books. So … I decided to ask Rufus what readers think of my books.

Here is what it had to say:

I don’t have access to reviews or opinions on specific books. However, here are a few general things about Mark Paxson’s books:

– Mark Paxson is an American author known for writing mystery and thriller novels. Some of his popular books include the “Jack McCall” series and “The Last Witness”.

– His books often feature complex plots with lots of twists and turns to keep readers guessing. The protagonists are typically ordinary people caught up in extraordinary circumstances.

– Reviews praise Paxson’s ability to build suspense and his detailed writing style that brings settings and characters to life. Many readers enjoy the fast-paced action in his books.

– However, some critics find the plots convoluted or unrealistic at times. There are also reviews that mention excessive violence or dark subject matter in certain novels.

– Paxson’s writing has been compared to authors like Lee Child and John Sandford. His books appeal to fans of the mystery, thriller and suspense genres.

– Reader opinions are mixed, with some loving the high-stakes stories while others prefer more grounded mysteries. Checking reviews can help determine if his style matches your reading preferences.

– Overall, Mark Paxson has developed a following for his page-turning thrillers, though critical reception is somewhat divided. Looking at reviews from readers with similar tastes can provide helpful insight.

After reading this, I had to double-check whether there is another Mark Paxson with books on Amazon. Because I don’t have a Jack McCall series or anything titled The Last Witness. Pretty much everything else that Rufus has to say is completely wrong. At least from my perspective. I’d love to know who this Mark Paxson is that Rufus thinks I am. Maybe he’s a more successful writer.

One of the things that is interesting is that there are over 150 reviews of my books on Amazon, but its AI doesn’t have access to those reviews? What exactly does it have access to then?

If this is the best that Amazon’s AI can do, it’s gonna need some more work.

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What I’ve Been Up To — An Update

When last I wrote here, it was June of last year. I read that post and I thought some of it occurred in September. Oh well. This is one of the things I’ve noticed about getting older. Time frames don’t actually jibe with my memory anymore.

Since that post, I participate in another craft festival. This time in December. A holiday fair that I thought would produce more sales because people would be buying gifts. Nope. I did just about the same amount of business as I did at my first art festival in April. Although, I did sell more books. What I’m learning is that the vast majority of people won’t spend more than $20-30, which means my bigger prints just don’t sell no matter how many people walk by and ooh and aah over them.

But I haven’t given up. Two things are coming up. First, on March 17, I’ll have a booth at Sip & Shop, a semi-regular event at South Slope Wines, a winery about ten minutes from home. The event will include about 10 vendors, live music, and food and wine provided by the winery. I’m hoping drunk people having a good time with the music and food will be willing to spend more money. But my sister who has done some events at wineries says they don’t.

Once that event is done, at the urging of the missus, I’m going to have a trial run at a local vendor market that is permanent. I can rent a space by the month. I’m going to try for three months and see what happens. I don’t have to be there when the market is open for business. They have staff who handle sales.

And don’t forget my website I’m slowly adding things to the website. My latest addition includes black and white images and 8 x 10 prints. Soon, I’ll be adding more individual pictures of coasters and more metal prints.

All of this means that I’m making more coasters and ordering more prints … and hoping that I’ll find buyers for all of this stuff. The website has been up for three months and I haven’t had a sell. But I also haven’t done much to promote it. I’m hoping to do more of that this year, as I add to it.

Meanwhile, in writing land …

I’m working with some authors to put together and publish an anthology. Each story has to loosely address this theme … what happens in that extra hour we get when daylight savings time ends. We’ve got nine authors contributing stories. I’ve seen most of the stories. Some are dark, some are speculative, some are more gentle. It’ll be interesting to see how it turns out.

And contrary to my last update, I have not worked on Carlota. Instead, I’ve been making very slow progress on my lighthouse story. I’ve researched lighthouses and the specific lighthouse where the story will be based. For the last few months I’ve been struggling with writing the thing though. What else is new. But … I’m about 3,000 words in and a few light bulbs have turned on.

One aspect of this story is that I’m writing it completely different then any other story I’ve written. I usually write from “the beginning” and just go from there. With this story, I’m writing in bits and pieces. A little bit here. Some over there. I have absolutely no idea how I’m going to organize this story.

In some ways, it is a return to the type of story my first novel, One Night in Bridgeport, is. Some back story, some history, several pieces of story bringing together the real story. I still don’t know how exactly I will begin it. I don’t know where to include the history. And I don’t know when to bring in the main characters. But I’m starting to write the disparate pieces so I can eventually figure it all out. After months of pondering, I’m excited to finally start putting more words on paper.

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